Lucy (Lucy made me)

Hi. My name is Delwin. Sophia is currently on her bed ignoring me, which is totally cool cuz I'm on her computer ignoring her. Today she got mad at me because I didn't bring an umbrella out to class with me. I never use umbrellas. The last time I used an umbrella was in a typhoon. The last time before that was never. She bought me an umbrella. I will use it tomorrow if it rains [hopefully it doesn't].

Oh and Jackie is the coolest person ever. And Lucy is cool too. Super super cool!

PEACE OUT HOMEZ

Rain

The weather was crazy today. I don't even remember a day ever being like that last year, although my memory probably isn't the very best and therefore cannot be relied upon, hah. But goodness, not only did it pour and pour, but the wind didn't help much either; it blew so hard that my umbrella flipped like twice. Ridiculous. And then my shoes got so soaked that I gave up and just decided to wear flip flops instead. Oh and I had to throw away the socks I was wearing cause I was wearing my cheap Taiwan shoes, which are red inside....so, the color like washed off and dyed my sock retardedly. I need some rain boots.

I've made a promise with myself to not skip anymore classes....so even though I was so tempted to just go home instead of treading to class all wet and disgusting, I still went. Yay (: It was obvious that I wasn't the only one with that idea....lecture was much more emptier than usual today. I'm supposed to be doing math now, but procrastinating (duh), and blogging instead. I'm also listening to music for the first time in a week using my computer cause I finally decided to use playlist.com. I love that site :D, cause I was getting so bored of listening to the same songs on my I-tunes. Sucks that I cannot download music...more like I'm afraid to, after the school gave us all those warnings. I think my favorites so far are Stolen by Dashboard, Stolen by Jay Sean, Unfaithful by Rhianna, and Promise in the Dark by Keri Hilson. 2 emo 2 nonemo, good balance I think. Oh and of course, Halo, but that's a given so I don't count it. :)

I really hope the weather is much better tomorrow.

Life

It's such a gloomy today, which, I think, falls very much in line with last nights' depressing event. I didn't get much sleep. Sigh, hello bags. Anyhow, my mommy came up to visit since I didn't go back home this weekend. Amazingly I enjoyed the few hours spent with her, even though it was just eating at the Korean restaurant in the Asian Ghetto and getting frozen yogurt. I guess the fact that the food was good and that she really liked it helped. But even more so, it was nice to just talk to her and update her about my life in college. I'm so open with her now that I find it hard to believe...I can tell her anything and expect her to understand or simply make her own fussy comments. Even if she is surprised by what I say, she accepts my actions, which now makes me realize that she has enough faith in me to trust what I do. I think our relationship is getting much better.

deli in my belly (7:54:18 PM): i think i told you before

deli in my belly (7:54:21 PM): ranting to me

deli in my belly (7:54:28 PM): makes me feel like im useful

deli in my belly (7:54:32 PM): and have a purpose in life


I have to save this for self reference.

Segregation.

I'm rewriting and researching additional notes for last week's ethnic studies lecture.

"The Clarks' doll experiments grew out of Mamie Clark's master's degree thesis. They published three major papers between 1939 and 1940 on children's self perception related to race. Their studies found contrasts among children attending segregated schools in Washington, DC versus those in integrated schools in New York. They found that Black children often preferred to play with white dolls over black; that, asked to fill in a human figure with the color of their own skin, they frequently chose a lighter shade than was accurate; and that the children gave the color "white" attributes such as good and pretty, but "black" was qualified as bad and ugly. They viewed the results as evidence that the children had internalize racism caused by being discriminated against and stigmatized by segregation."

For some strange reason, the portion which I have purposely bolded made me tear up a little. I don't know why I'm so emotional atm. ):

Happy Birthday Sister.

My goodness, you are 17 already. I think has really flown by quickly. Remember the days when you cried 24/7 and followed everything that I did? Even when it was stupid, like the one time I decided that American bills were too big. I started trimming the edges of all my dollar bills and you started copying me. We got in lots of trouble that day.
I think that the scariest part for me is knowing the fact that you are maturing at a pace so much faster than my own. You've ventured further because you are bolder, more curious, more willing to seek all that is unknown. But I, on the other hand have chosen to remain more conservative, because I am not as confident nor as brave. Nevertheless, I am extremely proud of how far you have come- proud actually, to be related to you. I respect your decisions whether I think they're right or wrong because I believe that you are fully capable of choosing your own correct path to stride upon.
I have to admit that our conversation last night has left me worried. Asides from what happened, everything seems to be hitting you hard lately, which only increases my stress over your well being and personal safety. But I have faith in you to overcome the blows and pull yourself back together. Why? Because you are you, and I know you well enough. So don't despair and don't put yourself down. I think an important part of being human is to make mistakes and to deal with the unexpected because nobody is perfect.

With all that being said, I can't wait to see you this weekend. Happy birthday for the 3rd time, 妹妹 <3

College

Warning:
Excuse the rambling. This is just a post to update on my current life, so it's extremely unorganized.


And so I've survived my first week. Everyone has been asking me how I like Berkeley...and my answer? I love it. :) Obviously there are basic reasons like meeting so many new people, making new friends, awesome roommates, food, activities/events (free stuff), etc. But best of all, I think, is this new freedom which I have been given. When people say that you have nearly no constraints in college, they aren't lying at all. Sure there are rules. But in college no one is watching you that closely, so technically speaking you can break whatever you like as long as nobody catches you.
Classes on the other hand...): darn, they seem hard. The sizes are huge and desks are tiny and its kinda cramped, but it's not unbearable or too bad. In fact, at some point you start thinking that it's rather cool since there's wifi and if you fall asleep, nobody really cares. Discussions help a lot too since they're basically high school class sizes. I'm trying to not bring my computer cause I'll prolly get distracted. Instead, I've been listening to my I-touch in class if I get bored..which is still pretty bad. >_> Leseeeeeeeee. For subjects, I liked Nutri Sci a lot. Math is good only for now cause we're on chapter 0; we spent a whole hour on the quadratic formula last Friday. Asian Studies is semi-boring right now, but I'm hoping it'll get better. I'm dropping sociology so yay screw that class. Edu. 98 is pretty chill and easy...but it's way too long in my opinion. And last but not least, ethnic studies is interesting...but I can't understand anything the professor, says thanks to his ridiculously thick accent.
I'm glad to say that I'm beginning to recognize my way around where I live...which is a huge relief because I got so lost the first few days. I've discovered so many places to eat here...it's crazy. The other day I had korean style shaved ice...omgosh it was super good. All this delicious food is helping me gain weight...but thank goodness I have to walk so much everyday to get from place to place, which gives me exercise! :D Hopefully that freshman 15 won't be happening.
Nevertheless, it's official. I think college is much much much better than high school.

Pam

Yesterday was the best. I got to see so many people in one day... :D I got to see a killer Chihuahua dog with Thoa too, LOL. Plus a deer, plus a breathtaking view up the hills...

And dear Pam, although the sleepover was only with the two of us, it was the funnest one of all. :D I still crack of laughing so hard every time I rewatch our wonderful video cam. I can't believe that's actually me being that retarded. I think the day we spent together really reflected us for the past years together. Eating that frickin delicious sandwich and finishing it like true pigs but complaining about service shows how fun it is to always eat with you. Shopping and to end up making a deal on loser to buy more things has to eat nasty bean sprouts shows our bad habits of over-spending. Camera whoring with you and playing with the funny settings and backgrounds just well, shows our love for pictures of us (;. And with the movies....I totally failed you cause I fell asleep T_T; But nevertheless, I also felt so comfortable doing whatever around you....like putting up our bangs and revealing our hideous faces, HAHA. That was the the first time I did it outside of home. And we should def. do dinner at a Supermarket again cause we're so cheap...I liked how 2.99 for a big bag of chips was considered too expensive for us both even though it was on sale. Ahhh I'm going to miss you so much. ):

All in all...we need to stay married, plan that trip to either Hollywood Bowl of Vegas next spring for sure, tokbox, visit each other when we both come home, and break David's claim that high school friends rarely stick together! <3

Byebyeee

Ok, I was so excited about moving...and now that it's here, I find myself freaking out. I've lived in San Jose...for literally my whole life, minus the 2 years in taiwan. But now what? Now I'm finally leaving the city that has always been my home. Maybe I've complained about how boring it is and how nothing ever happens, but I also would have to admit that it has proven to be quite a safe place to be. In fact, Yahoo just released an article ranking San Jose as top 10 in America's best places to grow up.

I will miss the people I know so much, esp fam and friends. This summer is different- different because I'm not thinking "oh it's just a break from seeing each other's faces everyday for a few months". Instead, I find myself wondering when I will see certain people again next, and whether or not our relationships will change. What if we drift and become strangers to each other? It's finally just hit me that I won't be walking down those same old orange halls every weekday and being squished often admist a trampede of students trying to get to class. I remember the one time I was pushed backwards while holding several boxes of Christmas presents from people and I nearly thought I was gonna die from all the suffocation. Leann had a good laugh at that incident.

I'm curious about what the future holds for me...curious about what I will do and where I will be. I guess after tomorrows leap forward, my actions will seriously affect the outcome of my life. It's funny, because now everything is unknown. I mean in high school, the message was pretty much work hard and get into a decent college for me. But not anymore. Now I have to think about what I want, because there are a bajillion options out there in this world.

To everyone that I know: thanks for all the memories, thanks for being part of my life, keep in touch pleaseeeeeeeeeeee. :)

Random Thought.

There's something about Taiwan that makes me love it so much....I don't know exactly what...maybe it's the fact that people here are so much easier to talk to, or that neighbors always know each other, or that food is too good to be true, or that things are always so cheap, or thatyou can haggle and build long lasting friendships between buyers and sellers, or that everything is almost always within walking distance. I can see myself living here someday.

Food

Brunch- Rice, potatoes, pork, sausage, eggs (2bowls)
Snack- Pear, mango, guava
Dinner- Wonton Noodle Soup, Beef Noodle Soup, Creamy Mango Ice Bar, Grass Jelly Shaved Ice, Pork Sun Bun, Red Bean Bun, Green Tea Slushie Drink, Mos Hamburger (w/ rice bun), Vanilla Chocolate Ice Cream Cone, Three Bags of Chips.

I've never eaten so much in my life in one day. (:

Another sentimental thought

In three days, I'll be leaving the island that has become my "home" for the past week+. I'll definitely miss its rural-ness and serene like features. I love how you can see so many birds here....they fly all over the place. Everything is so green, too. The people that I have come to known and live with have made this experience much better than I had expected. Brian is hilarious, even though he's pretty gross at times too. Lydia is so chill and "badass"; I love gossiping with her at night. Grace is unique and funny in her own quirky way. Joe is calm and very easy to get along with. Chyi Shin has a personality that I have never enountered before (with her no sharing spit and boy dilemna), but she's very aimable. Too bad she had to leave early though ): I miss my teaching partner. And last but not least, our two ti dai yi ge ge's. They are defnitely the best baby-sitters in the world. After all, they bought us gao liang (Kinmen liquor) to try. HAHA jkjk. I think they fit in really well with us. We always joke together as a group. Andrew can play the guitar and has pierced ears. Wu can dance and has a tattoo on his chest which we made him show. So even with the unfortunate occurence of Chyi-Shin's accident and the constant feeling of exhaustion from teaching, I know that I will never forget summer 2009.

Strangely I find myself missing my mom these past few days. Maybe it's because I've been gone for a longer period of time for this trip, or maybe because I'm beginning to realize that I'm growing up and college is approaching--that once I return I will have but five days to spend with her before going away again. I use to love the thought of freedom...the thought that she wouldn't be around me to care and pick on just about everything that I do. But lately I've been feeling quite apprehensive about a life without her around me 24/7. There will be nobody who pesters me about eating, about homework, about my mistakes, about my flaws, about my actions the way a mother does. Yes it is amazingly irritating and difficult to withstand most of the time, but this trip has taught me that I need her annoyingness, even if it drives me crazy. I guess this is one of those "sometimes you don't know what you have until it's gone" type of moments.

Five Days

Today was much better compared to yesterday, most likely because it's Friday and everyone (including us the teachers) just wanted to relax and have some fun. Even the annoying and mischevious boys were oddly more adorable than usual. We made ice cream and traded their stamps for junk food, hahaha. They liked it, as reflected through the extra hype I felt. I showed them my prom pictures by request and they thought I got married. Now they are asking to drink my marriage wine (xi jiou) in the future. Funny thought. Anyhow I'm troubled still by their lack of enthusiasm to learn English--seems more like they only want to play. Kids are kids I suppose, but it renders me with the feeling of uselessness, as if I've come here simply to amuse and entertain them rather than to teach. I find myself using way too much Chinese rather than English, which is very very bad.

I feel like a kid here again. I guess being as tall as some of them plays as a factor, but other activities like playing dodgeball and capture the flag reminds me of the days when I liked running around a lot. Some people (like me) start to lack motivation for moving excessively after aging a bit. :D It amazes me how lazy I've gotten....especially after not swimming for a whole entire year. Most of my groupmates got up earlier today to jog or take a walk but I just kept sleeping cause I was tired....even though I was the first one to go to bed last night. /fail.

Anyways, I'm looking very forward to the weekend...heard that we were going on a tour around the island. That should be fun, since it's a really beautiful one!

A week ago, I was feeling ridiculously miserable. After all, spending your very last summer of freedom locked up inside a building located within a city filled with exciting places to visit (such as the shopping malls) is most definitely not ideal at all. I think the only thing that kept me going were the new friends I made, and the new people I met. And even more so, the constant reminder that I would be at least doing some good in this world during vacation, even though my mom was the one who really pushed for me to teach. Nevertheless deep down, I wanted a sense of productivity, and thus I didn't put up much of a fight. My only form of counterance towards her demand was submitting my application a day before it was due. Procrastination ftw. Actually, AID has far exceeded my expectations and has turned out to be such a spectacular program....filled with brilliant individuals, all so very accomplished in multiple aspects. I remember complaining about being sent to an island so close to communism China, but my opinions have changed much since. Not only is the school nice, but the staff here are so heartwarming and cordial that it is impossible to feel touched by their enthusiasm and flattered by their high anticipations of my capabilities to make a difference here for the children. Of course, I think otherwise. I have no patience, and a terrible work habit that I need to fix before college starts (i.e wait until last minute to do things). But when I see the smiling faces of the kids, a will develops within me to do whatever I can to make their futures brighter, and better. So even though I could be back in Taiwan relaxing in AC everyday, shopping, and doing other fun things like going to nightmarkets or watching Harry Potter, I've come to deeply appreciate this priceless opportunity-- to teach somewhere isolated from large populations of humanity, somewhere peaceful and quiet. I'm even getting used to seeing cockroaches everywhere, even though I'll still freak out. And the people I'm teaching with are all super awesome (: I'm so relieved to be comfortable around them. Everyone has their own quirky weirdness.....which combined equals lots of laughter. Brian is making us all go back to the hotel now....so I will continue my rambling thoughts later.

One frickin day left.

MJ died. How sad....my dad use to like listening to his music. :X I just napped and showered- feel so much better now. I really hate being at home all day with nothing to do...it drives me crazy, like I'm being contained. so terribly unproductive. ;_; I guess I'm looking forward to a few days of busy-ness soon. Still...I'm constantly reminded that there's such little time left. I will miss you so much. :)

So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be

-3 Doors Down

My Cousins...

are so cool to hang out with. :D It was Sandy's birthday yesterday so we went to her house for a BBQ. Gosh, I laughed so much cause it was a lot of fun! Some of them have the craziest stories ever. Hope we all meet again soon...for karaoke!

Ramble time! (since I've got nothing to say) Hm, I ate two ice cream bars this morning. Fat. T__T; Wrote an one page essay letter. Going to the IAP dinner later tonight.

Angry.

When someone once asked me what super power I'd want, I said I'd want to control minds. That way I could make my future professors give me A's in everything. But today I've decided to change my answer. Instead, I want the ability to go back in time- to go back and change my mistakes. I hope you read this, because I've finally come to accept the fact that I've just lost a really good friend. And honestly, it hurts pretty bad. Worse, I know it's my fault. I can say sorry a million times it'd most likely be in vain. Absolutely pointless. Therefore, I will rant here, because I don't know what else to do.

Dear blog, I flew a kite today.

To be more specific, a tinkerbell kite! So cute. :D I woke up pretty late today....ate....then went back to take a nap. Woke up again to go to park with the meanest person in the world (not an understatement). <3 Walked around and saw a lot of geese...and a lot of poop. Wind was crazy; it made my hair attack my face. Saw a lot of doggies and squirrels too though. Overall, I enjoyed it so much. :) Heard Halo on the car ride back. I like that song, a lot. Then went to Quiznos to eat. I totally forgot that the sandwich I got was spicy...but it was really yummy! Oops, Thoa is outside waiting now. Bike time!

Wrote in lots of broken sentences....

EDIT PART II:
Biking was soooo tiring! Thoa and I died on the way up so we walked our bikes most of the way. Omgosh, the houses up the hills are crazy. They're all big and pretty. One had a bush in the front lawn cut as a giraffe. And this one woman who lives in a REALLY nice, huge house had like 5 dogs. Thoa wants to ask her if she wants a dog sitter. Actually, it seems like most people there own dogs. Aha. GOING DOWN WAS SCARY. Wind was blowing and pounding at my face! I thought I was gonna die so I started braking a little....which made things even scarier cuz I didn't wanna like flip by braking too hard. But we screamed like crazy :D

I'm loving life today.
Temporary goal for self: do not lose wristband.

Party at clinton's house today! :D funnnnnnnnn. Pam and I got there around 1, which was late, but I think everyone was late too since we left the house to go swimming soon after. I didn't get in the pool since I just got better from being sick...and didn't wanna risk getting sick again. :X I did put my feet in the jacuzzi though! It was so hot, and my feet turned pretty red. After we went back to eat korean bbq and hot dogs and other food. I was watching Kim and Nelson make a Vietnamese dessert....except that I kept stealing the fruit and eating it instead of actually helping...WELL, I did cut some strawberry ai yu up....but it wasn't even fully cut. >_>; aha. Anyways, we played Rockband and other games together....mostly kareoke and a weird dancing game that was hilarious since Clinton was owning everyone else so badly. The boys also sang Milkshake and failed. (: I left pretty early, like around 6....cause my mom wanted me home for dance. Grrrr, so unfair.

EDIT: OH YEAH. I GOT A NEW PHONE. It's blue. I'm okay with it actually....just glad it works so much better than my old one. Hope I don't drop this one a bajillion times too.

Graduation. Class of 09 <3

It's Saturday morning and I'm terribly bored. For some reason, there's a clock in my head that always makes me wake up at 8...and if I just lie in bed and procrastinate I end up waking up around 9. Sigh. Anyways, YESTERDAY, was one of the besterest (invented word) days I've had in a long long long time. I think the only thing that killed it a little was the fact that I didn't get to say hi to my dad or hug him at the very least at graduation thanks to my dear mother. :| Still, I'm relieved that I made it through the speech alive and that I didn't trip or do something dumb on stage. GJ Sophia. :)

After graduation was pictures, pictures, and more pictures .oh, and flowers! <3 I felt so loved, puwha. Never got so many flowers in my life. So prettty! but even better was a picture drawn with dots. yeah, I never thought dots could look so amazing...good enlightenment. Lydia, my mom, Minh, Bbora, my three cousins (Linda, Tony, Mike), and I went to eat afterwards together. We wanted to go to Cheesecake Factory....but a 1.5-2 hour wait was a bit too much for me. SO, we went to The Counter instead, which was like, a really good alternative cause the food was so frickin yummy and everyone liked it. :D (Thank you Alex for introducing it to me!) Theen, my cousins asked if we wanted Pinkberry after eating, but I was still really full and decided that I'd go home since my heels were killing my feet (barely made it to the car with all that limping, grr) and Lydia was cold and her voice was completely dying. And after that, I called DW (AHAHAHA :D) cause I felt that I deserved more time being mean to him since it was graduation day. We went to Milpitas Square...and although the plan was for me to walk off my fullness, I ended up deciding that I wanted Orange Tree and ate instead. Mmm yogurt. I really liked the green apple jelly thingy they had...but the strawberry flavor tasted really funny that day. Didn't even taste a thing like strawberry, so weird. Oh well, it didn't matter. Way too content to care. ^___^ And the rest of the night was just as good. If not, better.

I found out my school for aidsummer....and I'm not even going to be on Taiwan! LOL. Kinmen is suppose to be closer to china...an island off Taiwan. ): Omg, isolation. Ahhh oh well....at least I know I get AC and I'm staying at a hotel. My mom says that the area is poorer though since its on the outskirts. That makes spending my last summer teaching kids more worthwhile :)

Today, I watched Quarantine (and I learned what the word means). IT'S SCARY. T__T; Damn rabies and infected crazy people...someone kept laughing at me for being so scared. Pft! :D Then I went to Gombei to eat dinner. Broiled Mackerel was salty ;__; it was good though....but I didn't want sodium overload, ahaha. After I had to rush home for chinese painting class, got home around 11, showered, and finished graduation speech. yaaay

Aaaad lastly, I am feeling very very very happy. Ridiculous. :D

Freeeeeeee

Funny how a single text can make your day so much better, even though you had a terrible night. :D Magic. Anyhow, last day of Chinese school, yay! I ate and talked to everyone about camping...can't wait. It's gonna be fuuuun~

And a message to my dear best friend: sometimes the right one has just always been in front of you. (; aw. I'm going to go listen to Lucky now.

Continued....

Kristina: Thanks a bajillion for everything that you've done for me, like seriously. I CAN ALWAYS RELY ON YOU no matter what. Gosh, I still remember when you were a little tomboy in elementary school :) silly girl, now you always freak about about what to wear on special occasions. <3>

Shian: When we doo stupid things together, like me doing the wrong math problem and you also doing the wrong problem and then us going wtf at the answer in the back..."UCLA UCLA" HAHAH. Darrn you crack me up soo much. We have such a similar sense of humor ^____^ Don't forget to toxbox with me in college when we're ugly so we can make fun of each other.

MeiMei: I think our relationship is strange, considering the fact that its the daughter who looks after the momma. <3 Thanks for always being there for me and backing me up and making me feel better about myself. Hope we never get lost for two hours straight again, LOL.

Stanford: HI YOU ARE AWESOME. Awww, I'm going to miss making fun of you AND being made fun of by you. HAHA. You're one of those people who have just always been there...since my memory started recording stuff. :) I'll call you with discount when you turn 18. HAHA JAKAAY

Shoutouts
(SINCE apparently, the graduation speech is not suppose to be a thank you speech or a mentions special people speech....ILL BLOG INSTEAD)

Pam+Leann: You guysss are the best people in the world, like seriously. We've stuck together and never fought over anything...SO MUCH PEACE. No drama at all :D Puwhaha. I'm never ever going to forget all our outings, food runs, sleepovers. So much laughing :) But I'll really miss seeing you guys every day.....Thanks for putting up with my weirdness, for supporting me, and for loving me for me. "YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART" Fits perfectly. <3 this isn't a good bye....we aren't separating that far (thank goodness), so we better be seeing each other often enough!

Leslie: LONG LIVE OUR ANCIENT FRIENDSHIP. Ignore my retarded self when I wrote OW's letter. LOL. ARGH. RO, GAIA, CHINESE SCHOOL, FAIL GEOMETRY. No life. Jkjkjkjk. Great memories, huh?! BETTER HANG WITH ME THIS SUMMER, before you disappear into the wilderness of so cal thousands of miles away...I'm gonna look for a grandma figure for you in Taiwan. :)

Michelle: HEY. I don't get how I'm the one who inspires you when YOU'RE THE ONE who I think is admirable. (I read the newspaper) :D Whenever I think of the word prom, you always pop up in my head. HAHA. Gosh, congrats on everything and thanks for being so understanding!

Delwin: blank. You. I have absolutely nothing to say to you. :) Just kidding. Thanks for yelling at me whenever I tell you about me being lazy and predicting my grades for me. Thanks for spamming my aim everyday. And thanks for forgiving me when I die on you. You know what, thanks for meeting me in the first place, too. :D

Okay...there's a lot more people that I'm missing out on, I know. :( But yeah...this is getting really long. I didn't even start Part II to talk about the dance later yet. HAHAHA. Congrats class of 09. :D

Last Day

I'm going to post part I so that I don't forget what happened. :D

Today was camera whoring day! Haha, pictures everywhereee. It was fun signing yearbooks and hugging people too. First period was study study for piano finals...ugh I was so tired from drawing last night. It was ridiculous, T___T. I only did one too...I OWE PEOPLE PICTURES. Pam's took me over four hours. Grawr. But the final wasn't bad, although I did screw up naming the major and minor cords. LOL so faiilll. Anyways, afterwards the rally made me mad, cause people were booing again. :| So uncool. I liked the senior skit the most...they played You'll Be in My Heart from Tarzan. So sad, but such a good song ^____^. Then break came, and I went with Leann to find Pam, who was started crying like crazy when she looked at me after I hugged her <3 Then we went to find Leslie after who ALSO started to cry. And so there I was standing between two bawling people whom I really love and being accused of starting the waterworks. (: I almost wanted to cry watching them too....but I reminded myself that I was STILL GONNA SEE THEM. It's not over, yet! After break was Browns class....Leann and I took some really retarded/funny pictures. There was this one picture where she posed to kiss me...except that she really did accidently kiss me. Frickin woman, LOL. 5th was Holly's class...more yrbook signing and pictures. Then calc, with food, food, and more food. I ATE SO MUCH. Hope I dance some of it off later! :(

stuck

Hi. I've decided to blog instead since I cannot come up with a genius speech idea for graduation.

TODAY, I presented in English with the rest of my group. Our video clips were so funny....but we shouldn't have placed them back to back with each other. Even sadder was that you could totally see people holding up scripts for the actors/actresses to read off of. I wonder if Brown is gonna dock us for that; but still, it would have been impossible to memorize everything anyways.....senioritis would have prevented such a thing from happening. :) Strangely with just three days of school left, I have not been hit too hard with the reality that I'll be leaving high school....forever. Although, when I sat with several childhood friends in physics today, I couldn't help but notice how we were really all grown up now...nevertheless, I'm pretty sure that our immaturity still exists since Leslie and Pam were entertaining themselves by fighting with sticks and poking my chest with them. <3 LOL. I cannot wait until Friday is over....muwhaha- already planning fun things to do next weeek! I really hope that I do see the thing.

4 days left......

time is running fast now. can't chase it down anymore.

on the side note, I've very much cleared up my mind today. decision has been made, and therefore it shall be final....consequently, I have cleaned up my room earlier. It was getting too messy and hard to live in... I'm so proud of myself!

oh....A- in stats too yaaay

SAC conference today! We had a pretty good turnout, and I'm so glad that it's over. :) Everyone did really well and worked hard.

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down

:D

Même si le monde se met à tourner a l’envers
Si chaque seconde me guette
Comme si c’était la dernière
Même si les larmes ne pourront jamais oublier
D’une blessure a l’autre
Rien ne pourra m’arrêter

Currently working on English project....mood: BORED AND TIRED. :( Darn Brown.

Andrew is stuffing his bra right now....and Shian is jealous that his boobs are now bigger than hers. Also, all of us are very jealous of his nice body...AHAHAH

I forgot to update...for a while....so it's time to play catch up! Haha. Thursday was a ridiculously busy day. But on the up side, I have an A- in calc! Yay. Now I just hope my stats grade will be okay. Friday was crazy (good way). :) That's all I have to say.

Premiere Studios rocked. :D I laughed soooo much today hahah! I think my favorites were the Super Junior MV and the Cherry Markle one. But I liked all of them; good job to everyone in that club!

I got prom pictures today! yaaay, I liked them. I was so worried about my feet positioning cause Lydia yelled at me for not keeping my foot straight. She still thinks that it look retarded but whatever, at least my heels show. :) I didn't really do anything today...but tutor, I think. Didn't take calculus make up either cause I was super tired from English....didn't feel like failing. So then there goes my 4.0...goodbye goodbye. Poooooh. Oh well. I feel like I'm being bomboarded with projects by teachers! T___T;

Fanime was an absolute disaster.

Since Lynn wasn't picking up her phone, Pam, Leann and I couldn't get into the dealers room to look st stuff. It got boring, so we decided to take the lightrail to Santana Row instead....and since Winchester is close, we decided to just ride there. NOT VERY SMART. Note to self: check how far destination is from stop before getting off. T____T; cause Valley Fair was closer to a stop called Fruitdale...which was like quite a few stops before Winchester. Anyways after we got off, we figured that walked down Winchester would EVENTUALLY get us to VF. That, led us to one whole hour of walking down the same street....and we were really getting nowhere LOL. So we got so tired and just sat at a bus stop sulking and thinking about who to call to pick us up, HAHA. And then the bus finally came and we were so so so happy! I never thought buses could be so beautiful in my life. So we rode up to Capital Expressway/Story and waited for Alfred to get us...thank god. Bus ride was kinda freaky though....so many weird looking people...and we passed by REALLY ghetto areas. Scary. :X

Thus to summarize everything....we took the lightrail to some random place basically and then tried to come back when we could have just stayed and not go anywhere in the first place. LOL how very very sad. Nevertheless it was a very amusing journey....I tripped once or twice I think. The weather was actually really nice too. :)

Then I went home, ate, napped, and went to watch Terminator with Minh and his brothers....gosh, I had no idea what was going on. It was so confusing. All I know was that there was a lot of shooting and explosions and DAMN I WAS SO SCARED OF THE STUPID ROBOTS CAUSE THEY WERE SO FRICKIN UGLY. I SWEAR. :( I kept covering my eyes and Minh kept trying to move my hands. Argh! So I resorted to shutting my eyes completely, aha! Yeah, and that was that. What a unproductive day....but at least I got to hang out with people I love :D
It's 10:55 now...and I haven't been talked to someone all day. :|

RIP Leann's hamster. :'(

EDIT: I just read this post...and noticed the incredibly large amount of broken sentences/fragments. HAHAHA. Sorry~

I SLEPT SO LATE YESTERDAY. Around 4:40 am-ish, I think :D Too much fun. I woke up at 10 this morning and went to eat Gombei with my mom and sister. I had sushi again, which was relatively yummy, but still not as good as that one other place. Then we went to supermarkets to buy food and Lydia freeloaded a lot on the samples...OH and Yogurtland! I finally got my green tea yogurt. (: Gosh, the one at Orange Tree sucked so much. Mmm, then I went to rent DVDs at red box...since I'm going to go to Kristina's house later at 7. Underworld I! Haha, I know I'm gonna get so scared, but whatever I wanna watch it. A story about forbidden love between a vampire and werewolf seems very interesting indeed. Then, I went to work, which was okay. I'm glad AJ was thinking more clearly today....man, yesterday he kept thinking about the girl he has a crush on and it drove me crazy. -__- He kissed her picture in the yearbook! Wtf man. Sigh. My patience and tolerance has seriously been stretched quite a bit this year. LOL.

And so she might turn away...

so tiring. I don't wanna work, I don't wanna study, and there are some other things that trouble the mind.../rant.

anyhow, this is a blog I shall start, in hopes of keeping people I love updated about my life, wherever I may be :) School was so so so chill today with so much nothingness to do. I don't get why there's still school at all, in fact Lots of yearbook signing, which equals lots of memories and sadness in my mind. Two weeks left and I'm feeling so sentimental already! Don't know what I'll do when good bye really comes. :(

Hm, I like this green.