One frickin day left.

MJ died. How sad....my dad use to like listening to his music. :X I just napped and showered- feel so much better now. I really hate being at home all day with nothing to do...it drives me crazy, like I'm being contained. so terribly unproductive. ;_; I guess I'm looking forward to a few days of busy-ness soon. Still...I'm constantly reminded that there's such little time left. I will miss you so much. :)

So hold me when I'm here, right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be

-3 Doors Down

My Cousins...

are so cool to hang out with. :D It was Sandy's birthday yesterday so we went to her house for a BBQ. Gosh, I laughed so much cause it was a lot of fun! Some of them have the craziest stories ever. Hope we all meet again soon...for karaoke!

Ramble time! (since I've got nothing to say) Hm, I ate two ice cream bars this morning. Fat. T__T; Wrote an one page essay letter. Going to the IAP dinner later tonight.

Angry.

When someone once asked me what super power I'd want, I said I'd want to control minds. That way I could make my future professors give me A's in everything. But today I've decided to change my answer. Instead, I want the ability to go back in time- to go back and change my mistakes. I hope you read this, because I've finally come to accept the fact that I've just lost a really good friend. And honestly, it hurts pretty bad. Worse, I know it's my fault. I can say sorry a million times it'd most likely be in vain. Absolutely pointless. Therefore, I will rant here, because I don't know what else to do.

Dear blog, I flew a kite today.

To be more specific, a tinkerbell kite! So cute. :D I woke up pretty late today....ate....then went back to take a nap. Woke up again to go to park with the meanest person in the world (not an understatement). <3 Walked around and saw a lot of geese...and a lot of poop. Wind was crazy; it made my hair attack my face. Saw a lot of doggies and squirrels too though. Overall, I enjoyed it so much. :) Heard Halo on the car ride back. I like that song, a lot. Then went to Quiznos to eat. I totally forgot that the sandwich I got was spicy...but it was really yummy! Oops, Thoa is outside waiting now. Bike time!

Wrote in lots of broken sentences....

EDIT PART II:
Biking was soooo tiring! Thoa and I died on the way up so we walked our bikes most of the way. Omgosh, the houses up the hills are crazy. They're all big and pretty. One had a bush in the front lawn cut as a giraffe. And this one woman who lives in a REALLY nice, huge house had like 5 dogs. Thoa wants to ask her if she wants a dog sitter. Actually, it seems like most people there own dogs. Aha. GOING DOWN WAS SCARY. Wind was blowing and pounding at my face! I thought I was gonna die so I started braking a little....which made things even scarier cuz I didn't wanna like flip by braking too hard. But we screamed like crazy :D

I'm loving life today.
Temporary goal for self: do not lose wristband.

Party at clinton's house today! :D funnnnnnnnn. Pam and I got there around 1, which was late, but I think everyone was late too since we left the house to go swimming soon after. I didn't get in the pool since I just got better from being sick...and didn't wanna risk getting sick again. :X I did put my feet in the jacuzzi though! It was so hot, and my feet turned pretty red. After we went back to eat korean bbq and hot dogs and other food. I was watching Kim and Nelson make a Vietnamese dessert....except that I kept stealing the fruit and eating it instead of actually helping...WELL, I did cut some strawberry ai yu up....but it wasn't even fully cut. >_>; aha. Anyways, we played Rockband and other games together....mostly kareoke and a weird dancing game that was hilarious since Clinton was owning everyone else so badly. The boys also sang Milkshake and failed. (: I left pretty early, like around 6....cause my mom wanted me home for dance. Grrrr, so unfair.

EDIT: OH YEAH. I GOT A NEW PHONE. It's blue. I'm okay with it actually....just glad it works so much better than my old one. Hope I don't drop this one a bajillion times too.

Graduation. Class of 09 <3

It's Saturday morning and I'm terribly bored. For some reason, there's a clock in my head that always makes me wake up at 8...and if I just lie in bed and procrastinate I end up waking up around 9. Sigh. Anyways, YESTERDAY, was one of the besterest (invented word) days I've had in a long long long time. I think the only thing that killed it a little was the fact that I didn't get to say hi to my dad or hug him at the very least at graduation thanks to my dear mother. :| Still, I'm relieved that I made it through the speech alive and that I didn't trip or do something dumb on stage. GJ Sophia. :)

After graduation was pictures, pictures, and more pictures .oh, and flowers! <3 I felt so loved, puwha. Never got so many flowers in my life. So prettty! but even better was a picture drawn with dots. yeah, I never thought dots could look so amazing...good enlightenment. Lydia, my mom, Minh, Bbora, my three cousins (Linda, Tony, Mike), and I went to eat afterwards together. We wanted to go to Cheesecake Factory....but a 1.5-2 hour wait was a bit too much for me. SO, we went to The Counter instead, which was like, a really good alternative cause the food was so frickin yummy and everyone liked it. :D (Thank you Alex for introducing it to me!) Theen, my cousins asked if we wanted Pinkberry after eating, but I was still really full and decided that I'd go home since my heels were killing my feet (barely made it to the car with all that limping, grr) and Lydia was cold and her voice was completely dying. And after that, I called DW (AHAHAHA :D) cause I felt that I deserved more time being mean to him since it was graduation day. We went to Milpitas Square...and although the plan was for me to walk off my fullness, I ended up deciding that I wanted Orange Tree and ate instead. Mmm yogurt. I really liked the green apple jelly thingy they had...but the strawberry flavor tasted really funny that day. Didn't even taste a thing like strawberry, so weird. Oh well, it didn't matter. Way too content to care. ^___^ And the rest of the night was just as good. If not, better.

I found out my school for aidsummer....and I'm not even going to be on Taiwan! LOL. Kinmen is suppose to be closer to china...an island off Taiwan. ): Omg, isolation. Ahhh oh well....at least I know I get AC and I'm staying at a hotel. My mom says that the area is poorer though since its on the outskirts. That makes spending my last summer teaching kids more worthwhile :)

Today, I watched Quarantine (and I learned what the word means). IT'S SCARY. T__T; Damn rabies and infected crazy people...someone kept laughing at me for being so scared. Pft! :D Then I went to Gombei to eat dinner. Broiled Mackerel was salty ;__; it was good though....but I didn't want sodium overload, ahaha. After I had to rush home for chinese painting class, got home around 11, showered, and finished graduation speech. yaaay

Aaaad lastly, I am feeling very very very happy. Ridiculous. :D

Freeeeeeee

Funny how a single text can make your day so much better, even though you had a terrible night. :D Magic. Anyhow, last day of Chinese school, yay! I ate and talked to everyone about camping...can't wait. It's gonna be fuuuun~

And a message to my dear best friend: sometimes the right one has just always been in front of you. (; aw. I'm going to go listen to Lucky now.

Continued....

Kristina: Thanks a bajillion for everything that you've done for me, like seriously. I CAN ALWAYS RELY ON YOU no matter what. Gosh, I still remember when you were a little tomboy in elementary school :) silly girl, now you always freak about about what to wear on special occasions. <3>

Shian: When we doo stupid things together, like me doing the wrong math problem and you also doing the wrong problem and then us going wtf at the answer in the back..."UCLA UCLA" HAHAH. Darrn you crack me up soo much. We have such a similar sense of humor ^____^ Don't forget to toxbox with me in college when we're ugly so we can make fun of each other.

MeiMei: I think our relationship is strange, considering the fact that its the daughter who looks after the momma. <3 Thanks for always being there for me and backing me up and making me feel better about myself. Hope we never get lost for two hours straight again, LOL.

Stanford: HI YOU ARE AWESOME. Awww, I'm going to miss making fun of you AND being made fun of by you. HAHA. You're one of those people who have just always been there...since my memory started recording stuff. :) I'll call you with discount when you turn 18. HAHA JAKAAY

Shoutouts
(SINCE apparently, the graduation speech is not suppose to be a thank you speech or a mentions special people speech....ILL BLOG INSTEAD)

Pam+Leann: You guysss are the best people in the world, like seriously. We've stuck together and never fought over anything...SO MUCH PEACE. No drama at all :D Puwhaha. I'm never ever going to forget all our outings, food runs, sleepovers. So much laughing :) But I'll really miss seeing you guys every day.....Thanks for putting up with my weirdness, for supporting me, and for loving me for me. "YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART" Fits perfectly. <3 this isn't a good bye....we aren't separating that far (thank goodness), so we better be seeing each other often enough!

Leslie: LONG LIVE OUR ANCIENT FRIENDSHIP. Ignore my retarded self when I wrote OW's letter. LOL. ARGH. RO, GAIA, CHINESE SCHOOL, FAIL GEOMETRY. No life. Jkjkjkjk. Great memories, huh?! BETTER HANG WITH ME THIS SUMMER, before you disappear into the wilderness of so cal thousands of miles away...I'm gonna look for a grandma figure for you in Taiwan. :)

Michelle: HEY. I don't get how I'm the one who inspires you when YOU'RE THE ONE who I think is admirable. (I read the newspaper) :D Whenever I think of the word prom, you always pop up in my head. HAHA. Gosh, congrats on everything and thanks for being so understanding!

Delwin: blank. You. I have absolutely nothing to say to you. :) Just kidding. Thanks for yelling at me whenever I tell you about me being lazy and predicting my grades for me. Thanks for spamming my aim everyday. And thanks for forgiving me when I die on you. You know what, thanks for meeting me in the first place, too. :D

Okay...there's a lot more people that I'm missing out on, I know. :( But yeah...this is getting really long. I didn't even start Part II to talk about the dance later yet. HAHAHA. Congrats class of 09. :D

Last Day

I'm going to post part I so that I don't forget what happened. :D

Today was camera whoring day! Haha, pictures everywhereee. It was fun signing yearbooks and hugging people too. First period was study study for piano finals...ugh I was so tired from drawing last night. It was ridiculous, T___T. I only did one too...I OWE PEOPLE PICTURES. Pam's took me over four hours. Grawr. But the final wasn't bad, although I did screw up naming the major and minor cords. LOL so faiilll. Anyways, afterwards the rally made me mad, cause people were booing again. :| So uncool. I liked the senior skit the most...they played You'll Be in My Heart from Tarzan. So sad, but such a good song ^____^. Then break came, and I went with Leann to find Pam, who was started crying like crazy when she looked at me after I hugged her <3 Then we went to find Leslie after who ALSO started to cry. And so there I was standing between two bawling people whom I really love and being accused of starting the waterworks. (: I almost wanted to cry watching them too....but I reminded myself that I was STILL GONNA SEE THEM. It's not over, yet! After break was Browns class....Leann and I took some really retarded/funny pictures. There was this one picture where she posed to kiss me...except that she really did accidently kiss me. Frickin woman, LOL. 5th was Holly's class...more yrbook signing and pictures. Then calc, with food, food, and more food. I ATE SO MUCH. Hope I dance some of it off later! :(

stuck

Hi. I've decided to blog instead since I cannot come up with a genius speech idea for graduation.

TODAY, I presented in English with the rest of my group. Our video clips were so funny....but we shouldn't have placed them back to back with each other. Even sadder was that you could totally see people holding up scripts for the actors/actresses to read off of. I wonder if Brown is gonna dock us for that; but still, it would have been impossible to memorize everything anyways.....senioritis would have prevented such a thing from happening. :) Strangely with just three days of school left, I have not been hit too hard with the reality that I'll be leaving high school....forever. Although, when I sat with several childhood friends in physics today, I couldn't help but notice how we were really all grown up now...nevertheless, I'm pretty sure that our immaturity still exists since Leslie and Pam were entertaining themselves by fighting with sticks and poking my chest with them. <3 LOL. I cannot wait until Friday is over....muwhaha- already planning fun things to do next weeek! I really hope that I do see the thing.

4 days left......

time is running fast now. can't chase it down anymore.

on the side note, I've very much cleared up my mind today. decision has been made, and therefore it shall be final....consequently, I have cleaned up my room earlier. It was getting too messy and hard to live in... I'm so proud of myself!

oh....A- in stats too yaaay